I’m feeling really upset. I spent the morning getting ready for my friend to come get me & take me to her house to help decorate her Christmas tree. Which she doesn’t like at all and her mother forces her, so I was going to be the help. I even put a little speaker and my ipod in my purse so I could play Bing Crosby Christmas music and hopefully help her get in the spirit of things.

So I’m back in the back bedroom getting ready. Apparently, she came, rang the bell, called my phone (which was charging in the living room) and LEFT. She just drove away. I called her back and she said she was already too far gone. I seriously feel like crying, more than I should. I’m sitting here, with my stupid bow-pin in my hair, with my stupid boots on and my stupid sweater, and my stupid make-up, and my stupid holiday music, and I have NOTHING.

I wasn’t worth waiting for.